“Run from what’s comfortable. Forget safety. Live where you fear to live. Destroy your reputation. Be notorious. I have tried prudent planning long enough. From now on I will be mad.” Rumi
Fourteenth row. I can’t believe how close we are to the stage. Was I even this excited when I saw Billy Joel perform live in Calgary back in 88? Checking the time I see that it is only a few moments to show time. I look up and there he is! Walking down the stairs, just as casual as can be in his shorts and T-shirt, he shakes a few hands, gives a hug then signs something. He chats a bit then moves closer to the stage. As the announcer walks to the microphone I see him smile and wave at a few people. ” Ladies and Gentlemen, blah-d-blah blah……… Dr. Wayne Dyer!” The crowd roars. I am personally doing the bouncy clap, trying desperately not to hoot, whistle or throw any undergarments at the stage, which to my mind would probably not be deemed appropriate behavior at a lecture on Spirituality.
Dr. Dyer saved my life. I can’t honestly say that I would be who or where I am today if it hadn’t been for his books, his teachings, or the mesmerizing quality of his lectures. I had recently been through some very traumatic stuff and through it all Dr. Wayne was the life line for me. He followed me through my days, his voice repeating words over and over from the tinny speakers of my MacBook. His teachings on Inspiration, Intention and fulfilling our personal Dharma had been the bricks in the path that led me away from despair and showed me that I had everything within me that I needed to heal, survive and thrive.
I had really wanted to go on his tour of Holy sites in Europe, but the cost had been prohibitive. Regardless, I knew that the Universe had ways and means beyond my small human thinking that could make this miracle happen for me. So I just did what Dr. Wayne says to do. I set the intention. “I intend to experience the miraculous with Dr. Wayne.” And then I left it up to the great Divine Mind to figure out the hows, wheres and whens.
As with most miracles, this one knocked my socks off. I had planned to drive to Kelowna, a city about 7 hours away by car, to take my daughter for a music festival. I was talking to my Mom, asking her if we would be able to stay with them while we were there. Dad mumbles something in the background. Mom says “Dad wants to know if you want to go see Dr. Wayne Dyer in Vernon while you are here.”
Well slap my ass and call me Judy! Did he just say THE DR. WAYNE will be mere moments away from me while I am in Kelowna?? Needless to say I booked our tickets that very night, and didn’t sleep a wink between that day and THE day of the event. (I told you a million times not to exaggerate).
You see, when somebody reaches across the page and touches a soul, that person can tend to gain a little bit of rock star status. At least he did for me. That would account for my nearly rapturous state at the lecture that evening.
The events that occurred that evening count as some of the most bizarre, magical moments of my life. On reflection I believe that what allowed it all to unfold the way it did was my state of pure openness. I was of a mind and a heart that was open to everything and attached to nothing. It was that magical state that allowed the veil to slip open for me, giving me a glimpse of eternity I never in my wildest dreams would imagine seeing.
Dr. Wayne began to speak, his deep soothing voice moving from topic to topic, easily inserting interesting and pertinent quotes and funny stories. He is engaging to watch, a true master of public speaking.
My senses seemed to narrow and all of the people around me, the auditorium, everything faded so that it was just me watching him.
And then something weird happened.
A large white light seemed to extend from his form and surround him. It was a huge aura of energy, moving with him so that he seemed to be dancing in the light. I was mesmerized. At first I wondered if I might be getting a migraine headache. I’ve had those in the past and they sometimes created the light effects similar to what I was seeing. I looked around me to see if the aura was anywhere else, but it wasn’t. That is when I knew I was seeing something very special indeed. I was seeing the spirit and not just the man.
My eyes were swimmy with tears but I couldn’t stop grinning. This was the most awesome light show ever! Better than any rock show. My love dial was turned up to eleven. Dr. Wayne started to talk about St. Francis of Assisi. He had written about St. Francis in his book There’s a Spiritual Solution To Every Problem. Although I hadn’t yet read that book I had always felt a great affinity for St. Francis and the prayer based on his teachings, Lord let me be an instrument of thy peace. Such beautiful teachings, pure in the spirit of Divine Love and service. I watched as Dr. Wayne became immersed in the passion of the teachings, his excitement evident in his voice and actions.
Then something really weird happened.
The man, Dr. Wayne Dyer, phased out of my sight and in his place stood Francis of Assisi. He was very thin, dressed in tattered monks robes with a fringe of hair around his otherwise bald head. His face was unlike any I had seen depicted in the frescoes and paintings of St. Francis. He did not wear the anguish of a martyr in his demeanor and expression. To the contrary. His face glowed with rapturous joy. It was the most sacred thing I have ever witnessed and even now, years later as I remember it brings me to tears. It lasted for only a few seconds but the impression it left has changed my life.
Soon it was time for an intermission. Dad, my date for the evening, went off to stretch his legs. I sat quietly amid the sounds of hundreds of people milling about. Closing my eyes I took a deep breath and tried to assimilate what had just happened. Was that real? Did I just see what I thought I did? Or has the cheese slipped off my cracker?
A soft touch on my hand startled me and my eyes flew open. Sitting next to me was a very lovely older woman. She grasped my hand and stared deeply into my eyes. I smiled back, a bit startled, but was fascinated by her eyes. They were so young looking in such an aged face. Sparkling green, they seemed somehow familiar. Did I know her?
“I couldn’t stop watching you. You were shining. It was as if a light was glowing from you.” She smiled at me and I felt like I was seeing somebody I knew really well but had forgotten for some reason. The connection between us was intense, like instant love, just add water. We began to talk, our words melding, completing each others’ thoughts, talking about important things like God, and love and how we are all connected, about angels and friendships and family. We talked for the whole intermission and when Dr. Wayne climbed back on stage, she left my side to sit further in the row.
Our conversation was not finished, I decided. As soon as this was over I would get her contact info so that we could resume our connection.
The second half of the evening was even better than the first. Everyone in the building could feel the energy and Dr. Wayne was as good as I have ever seen him. The aura was back, bigger than ever and I felt myself once again drawn by his words to moments of pure, inspired Truth.
He began talking about his year of living the Tao. For one year he gave up almost all of his worldly possessions and studied the Tao Te Ching, an 81 verse teaching that was purportedly written in the 6th Century BC by the Chinese Master, Lao Tzu. In the book, Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life, Dr. Dyer wrote 81 essays, one for each verse of the Tao.
As Dr. Wayne was discussing these teachings he was once again caught up in the passionate message he was delivering. The words flowed seamlessly, carrying the messages of Lao Tzu.
Then something really, really weird happened.
Dr. Wayne’s physical form seemed to fade into the white aura that surrounded him and he became the form of Lao Tzu. He had long white hair, braided down his back and wore a simple blue tunic. He had facial hair, long and sparse, and the Asian features of the great master. He emanated true wisdom and peace.
I could barely breathe. Again the image only lasted a few moments, but they were some of the most powerful moments I’ve ever experienced. What was happening? And was I the only one who saw this??
I turned to look at my Dad but he didn’t seem overly weirded out. I looked down the row and everyone was in passive listening mode, all eyes turned toward the stage. With the noted exception of my new friend that is. Her twinkly green eyes peered down the row at me and we smiled at each other.
Dr. Dyer talked for another hour or so, powerful messages, good laughs and everything a person could hope for from an evening with the man. We stood up and applauded at the end and as soon as he had left the stage I turned toward my new friend, anxious to get her email address or phone number.
And then something really, really, really weird happened.
She was gone. I searched the row, looking for her diminutive figure. The seat she had occupied was empty and there was no way she could have left other than by crossing in front of me. Where did she go? And more importantly, was I losing my mind? Ah what the heck. Was a mind such a terrible thing to lose?
Dad and I left the venue and as we were pulling out of the parking space I happened to catch my own reflection up close in the rear view mirror and paused as I saw my own green eyes. They were exactly the same as the lady’s eyes. No wonder they looked so familiar to me!
Mind = blown. But in the best possible way, of course.
The following few weeks were spent trying to make sense of what happened. I shared the experience with my American Husband, my daughter and my best friend. They each had differing theories on what the visions meant. As far as the Dr. Wayne transformations there were a few schools of thought. One was that Dr. Wayne had been both St. Francis and Lao Tzu in previous lifetimes. Another was that he was so enraptured by the messages of these men that time kind of folded in on itself and they became One for a moment. The third option lived silently in my mind and whispered that I was delusional and had better not talk about this because I would be judged as bat-shit crazy.
As far as my friend, the woman with my eyes… who could she be? Was she an angel? Was she me from the future (another fold in time)? Or was she me from a Parallel lifetime? Jury is still out on this one, but I do know that she visits me in my dreams sometimes and it is always such a beautiful reunion. I only spoke with her for a few minutes, but I have missed her ever since.
So here’s the thing. When strange things happen to me I tend to keep them to myself, only sharing with a select few people. I would like to say that I am independent of the good opinion of others, but truth be told, I fear the judgment. (I’m working on it)
These events began to grow in my consciousness. It seemed that every moment of the days following I would think about them, and a persistent voice was nagging me, like Patrick Swayze singing ”I’m Henry the Eighth I am” to Whoopie Goldberg, over and over and over. This persistent, nagging voice kept telling me I must write a letter and tell Dr. Dyer what happened. I ignored that voice of course. (WRITE THE LETTER). No way was I going to be THAT person! (WRITE THE LETTER). He would think I was wacko! (WRITE THE LETTER). Crazy as a spoon! (WRITE THE LETTER). Off my proverbial rocker! (WRITE THE LETTER).
I sat down at my computer and wrote the damn letter. Without allowing myself to give it any further thought I found the address to Hay House Publishing in the back of Inspiration Your Ultimate Calling and stuffed the damn letter into the damn envelope, sealed it and dropped it in the damn mail box.
Whew. Done. I could breathe again. Certain that my letter would never find the man, I went on with daily life, relieved that the nagging voice was stilled. Little did I know what the Universe had in store for me.
You have one new message. “Hello Brenda Babinski, this is Dr. Wayne Dyer……”